What is on my mind? No doubt many things will flood it today, good and not so good. However I woke up rejoicing which can’t be a bad start to any day:
rejoicing at the complete unreasonableness of the love of God toward me;
rejoicing that reason only takes me so far in understanding my conversion; all I can say is God did it. It was not in my mind at all to be converted when I was…but I was;
rejoicing that my faith does not rest on reason but on the Word and power of God; after all we may lose our own reasoning powers one day. I lost mine when I was concussed once but my spirit was gloriously alive, exulting in God in the most joyful tongues I have ever spoken with in my whole Christian experience; I was partly rejoicing because of the discovery that when I was off my chump and not in sensible control of my own body or speech, my spirit was still in reality; it is the only part of me that was for a while! So I guess I had a reason to rejoice, but it was beyond reason too, wonderfully and gloriously so. I felt no need at all to explain myself to the confused and rather frightened on-looking doctor. OK, for the nitpickers , I did fail to interpret for him. Actually, for the same nitpickers, it was not a tongue for interpretation if you must know, but this is all getting a bit technical and off target…
Oh it is not all completely unreasonable, this Christian thing. I can give you a reason for the hope that is in me, but I can never understand grace, the steadfast loving kindness of God towards rebels in these outlying parts of His Heavenly Kingdom, so infinitely far from His Throne where He is worshipped as the Holy Holy Holy God: grace made the incredible journey across the infinite gap “that He should give His Only Son to make a wretch his treasure!” “We may not know, we cannot tell what pains He had to bear, but we believe it was for us, He hung and suffered there.”
Very happy not to understand it all, that the reason for my hope may not make full sense to anyone I share it with. Their coming to faith is not going to rest ultimately on my persuasiveness but on the power of God.
So praise God for our minds. Part of the whole business of our minds being renewed is realising their reach is limited, that there are matters too high for us, before which we can rest in the arms of God, like a well-weaned child who could not even understand the concept of 2 plus 2 equalling 4.
God bless you with rest and joy this day, child of God.
By the way, God bless the apologists, we need them and their gifting, we need you and your gifting if you are one of them. However all gifts and strengths if unguarded become a weakness and can become our undoing, and the gift of being a persuasive apologist is no different from any other in this respect. C.S. Lewis says this in “The Great Divorce”:
“There have been men before … who got so interested in proving the existence of God that they came to care nothing for God himself… as if the good Lord had nothing to do but to exist. There have been some who were so preoccupied with spreading Christianity that they never gave a thought to Christ.”
May we never worry too much about appearing clever. After all, when it boils down to it, we are bound to the folly and the weakness of the cross which in eternal terms, the only terms that will prevail, is the wisdom and the power of God.