Believing and declaring God’s Word over ourselves must go hand in hand with honesty before God in the secret place about what is happening in our hearts, which at times will be in line with the Word we are believing and declaring and at times will be quite different. To hold these ingredients together is to worship in Spirit and in Truth.
Today as I woke I saw that some who will read this, are in fellowships that without meaning to do so, foster dishonesty, demanding a forced brightness and joy in the name of so called ‘faith’ which isn’t! To gain acceptance and approval you have had to mask the distresses of your heart, to mask even that some of you are on the Autism Spectrum, that you have Aspergers, or that you are on antidepressants or antipsychotic medication etc. It is making ‘going to church’ an increasing experience of what could truly be called terror, to the point of fearing a panic attack may well happen.
I knew this morning that God had seen your distress and has come down to rescue you. I honestly don’t know how that rescue will come, but come it will. It may be that God will touch and heal your distresses in what you will recognise as a miraculous way. It may be your fellowship is going to become a safer place for you and others like you as a spirit of control is uncovered, acknowledged and repented of. It may be that God will help you find a gathering you have not yet found that will be like a rescue centre for mistreated dogs; a place of healing where first steps of trust can be renewed in an atmosphere of consistent kindness; a place where the corporate expression of perfect love will cast out every fear of what would happen to you if what you struggle with were to come out and be discovered.
May the gentle touch of God be upon you. Be still, if that is possible for you and be aware His hand is upon you. Even if you cannot be still this day, may the Lord’s kind hand be upon you. Whatever you declare today, may you also cast all your anxieties upon the One who cares for you beyond all our combined faith.