Have heard some sad news…

What is on my mind? Feeling a bit sad to find people writing to me after a recent blog to say they have been told by their pastors that their depression is a sin. If you have been told that, please know it is rubbish. Not only that, it is cruel rubbish. If that is the persistent teaching on the matter, you should probably not try and dignify such madness with a conversation. You would probably be better off in a church where the leadership understands human fragility. Pastors don’t always like it when people move church. Sometimes it is the right thing to move even if the pastor throws a fit and puts pressure on you to stay…though if you are in perpetual motion that is a different matter! Settle somewhere, where the fellowship is supportive and you find good spiritual bread on offer that strengthens you, even strenghtens you to offer yourself to bless others in your brokenness.
Jesus still remembers a time when he was so sorrowful he felt he could die on the spot. I hope you hear the tone of his voice and heart speaking to you somehow this day. Remember too that same heart and voice is praying for you in the same tone. He ever lives to make intercession for you and for me… and even for the folk who have distressed you with their condemning words….
Actually I have come to see that those who have entered into depression are often the bravest of souls. Pstorally I have so often found it is the road from a past to which one cannot return or had to move away to a new place, a new state not yet arrived at emotionally, mentally, spiritually or even physically. However you found yoursef on that road, be it for reasons of chemical imbalance, or chldhood trauma, for reasons of circumstance or for one of many other reasons, may you know the empathy of Jesus. He is now annointed with the oil of joy. He got there! He has faith for you. If your faith has dried up, somehow may the faith of the Son of God ,who loved you and gave himself for you, be yours this day.
God bless
Kenny

A headstand in the morning and before bed is good for you!

I was never very athletic (Understatement!). I did like sports like tennis, squash and golf etc, in days of better health, but gym stuff was never my cup of tea at any age or  stage of life. Cartwheels, Kenny style, were less than graceful and smooth. Handstands were out. Headstands however, were ok. I could get into that pose, and stay there comfortably for a long time, actually.

Well, I guess I am inviting you to make a  headstand through this blog, if you need to! I came across a line out a poem in my readings from “Celtic Daily Prayer” today in the readings and comments  set for 18th.September in the St. Aidan Collection of readings. The line was in a mediation, poem by Laurel Bridges:

“pour down blessing
on the detail of our days.”

For me this was an encouragement to stand on my head faith wise and to bring me back into line with Jesus. I think I can have a tendency to think that it is up to God to take care of the really big things in my life, but details are either incidental or are to be taken care of by myself. Actually Jesus encourages us to do life differently. He says to us, “You take care of the big things by your decisions and leave the details to me, to your heavenly Father who loves to give good gifts to His children.” Is that not what He told us to do? “Seek first the Kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these other things, the details of every day life will be given to you.”

I was thinking today for someone in whose life I see this happening. I have observed that they have taken responsibility for the big direction of their lives, namely to honour Christ. As they have set themselves to do that I occasionally see that they seem to give scant regard to details that I think should be attended to in what they are about in their day to day living, leisure etc., though they are by no means disorganised or lacking in thoughtfulness or organisational ability But here’s the thing: details that I would have spent a lot of time attending too seem to fall into place for them with unfailing regularity! In the process of that happening, they are much more free from angst than I would be if I were to be approaching the same issues or circumstances.

It is so possible to get absorbed in details that we get distracted by the one thing needful at any moment. Jesus made that clear too.

Perhaps like me, you need to be challenged to stand on your head. If you are a natural worrier, or an anxious person, or a person who needs to think through every detail of an issue etc,  why not put fresh faith in the God who wants to pour out blessing on the detail of life? Try and go for a day or two without thinking about the details. It is enough for you to think about the one thing needful at any moment. That does not mean being thoughtless or stupid about the way we go about things. It means that my faith believes that God is with me not only in the big things but in the details. “The good person’s steps are ordered by the Lord.” As I think of the person I mentioned above, I see that verse being fulfilled. May you see it fulfilled for you.

God Bless

Kenny