That familiar thought that disturbed you this morning. You woke up feeling good! Then, like a heavyweight punch in the face it came: “Is it my fault that things are like this?” That punch has come so often to a bleeding cut. It is the enemy seeking to stretch you out on the floor. It is the cruel manipulation of your sorrow and grief about what has or has not happened.
At times you have turned your wondering into a question to God, but He has never answered “Yes” or “No.” If He said “Yes” you could not live with the increased grief. If He said “No” the black boxing glove would still keep hitting you. He is not into blaming anxious and sensitive souls. He wants you simply to trust the process of His grace and the purposes of that grace for you and for “them.” You did what you could at that point in time. You did the very best you could. Jesus has always looked upon those who did what they could with tender favour and blessing and affirmation. What the malevolent boxer calls “fumbling inadequacy” Jesus calls “a beautiful thing.”