Since I started to train for the ministry in 1979 onwards a few people have said to me something like this: “Kenny, I really want to grow in God. If you see anything in my life where you think I am going wrong I give you permission to speak into that.” I think one or two of the few really meant that in all humility and sincerity. I was reading Psalm 139 a few moments ago, in the NLT. I was wondering if I could pray and mean these words at the end of that psalm, and I guess I am giving you the opportunity to wonder about that too for yourself: “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me the offends you, and lead me alone the path of everlasting life.” “Search..test..know..point out…lead..” That really is laying it all before the Lord.
Beware, He will do it! Joking but not really… I prayed those words in the summer of 1986 and He revealed the root of depression and led me through dealing with a memory that had lain suppressed deep in my subconscious for over 26 years.
I still pray those words, knowing that our hearts can be so self deceiving and treacherous, attempting self protection that is harmful both to ourselves and others.
Open and honest before Him, and ready to accept His detection and healing, and forgiveness when necessary… the only way to grow up to the full stature of Christ is in Him by grace and mercy.